Stay Grateful For Your Chaos

Stay Grateful For Your Chaos

The world darkened; blurring my vision, leaving me to fall without rescue. It seemed that there was no escape from the painful instability that constantly haunted my spirit. But beyond my inner turmoil lie a glimmer of salvation: the gleaming power of gratitude.

The world overwhelmed my mind; threatening to tear me apart in its wake, but that could never extinguish its intrinsic beauty: fragrant blooms of indigo and gold, the glowing warmth of love and friendship, the sheer delight of the wind singing through sparse tree branches as deep coral leaves skitter across the sidewalk.

Suddenly, I found myself awash in a symphony of hope. It quelled the tides of unrest and unease that barreled through my mind, threatening to drown me. The world regained its vibrant color; my heart beat airly as it enveloped itself in an abundance of blessings. The warmth of eternal gratitude opened my heart to the mundane riches that had previously remained intangible.

Your world may feel as though it has left you blinded, dizzied, and gagged; grasping for release as it threatens to swallow you. But amid the freneticism that suffocates you, never forget the power of lifting your heart in thanksgiving; the joy in the celebrating the very woes that vow to break you.

Stay grateful for your chaos.

Stay grateful for the winds that blow against you. They howl in your ears; screeching as they press against your body, threatening to knock you down. But within every struggle that threatens to break you lies an opportunity to discover your destiny; to set aside what’s not meant to be.

Stay grateful for your heart’s relentless ache. It penetrates through you as you pine for healing; wondering if you will ever weather the storms that brew within you. But ensconced in every heartbreak, every delicate crack, is the power to rediscover warmth and light, to and stride out stronger as the rains fall behind you.

Stay grateful for the fears that haunt you. They constrict your soul; tugging against you with reckless abandon. But concealed in every worry that attempts to consume you is a glimmer of knowledge that you will soon find solace; an undying reprieve from today’s transient anxieties.

Stay grateful for your chaos; the moments that seem to swallow you as the world vows to sink you. Once you discover the potential that can arise out of your darkest moments, the winds will blow towards you, the pain of heartaches dissipate, and the fears that haunt you will begin to fall away; leaving you nothing but the eternal joys of life’s constant beauty.


Most Times I Am Doing My Best

Most Times I Am Doing My Best

Sometimes I hate. 

Sometimes I think terrible thoughts. 

Sometimes I get jealous. 

Sometimes I am not grateful for what I have. 

Sometimes I want more and I’m never satisfied. 

Sometimes I laugh and I really do not mean it. 

Sometimes I smile, but I’m really rolling my eyes. 

Sometimes I’m nice only because I have to be. 

Sometimes I stay positive only to fight someone’s negativity. 

Sometimes I care too much about what other people think. 

Sometimes I say things that are hurtful to others. 

Sometimes I’m angry with everyone because I have too many thoughts in my head. 

Sometimes I judge people. 

Sometimes I think people overreact without trying to understand. 

Sometimes I do nothing instead of doing something good. 

Sometimes I take the easy way out. 

Sometimes I really could care less. 

Sometimes I am not really happy to see others happy. 

Sometimes I wish I could run away. 

Sometimes I wish I could just give up. 

Sometimes it hurts to look back at these thoughts. 

Sometimes I agree with them to avoid conflict.

Society makes us believe that these sort of thoughts are unforgivable. If I had a choice, I would choose not to think about these things. I work on this on a daily basis, but I have learned that I work better when I challenge why these thoughts came into mind in the first place. At the end of the day, we are all only human and we cannot always control what runs past our mind. This is okay. I am here to say you are not alone. I can say that with a fact that this does not make you a terrible person. I have a list of why this is;

Most times I am not thinking about what could go wrong. 

Most times I am smiling and working to make someone else smile.

Most times I apologize for doing something hurtful.

Most times I will not repeat my hurtful words.

Most times I celebrate other’s success.

Most times I laugh enough to work on my anxiety.

Most times I say grace for the small things.

Most times I make the most of what I have.

Most times I am nice when I do not need to be.

Most times I will compliment a small detail.

Most times I stay positive to infect it in everyone’s day. 

Most times I do the right thing even when no one is looking. 

Most times I give everyone the benefit of the doubt. 

Most times I am sorry for the decisions I make that hurt others.

Most times I stay put and face my problems head-on. 

Most times I look back on my thoughts and smile. 

Most times I have no idea what I am doing, but I continue to do it. 

Most times I do good instead of doing nothing. 

Most times I love. 

The point is, most times I am doing the best I can do, and that is okay.